Entry 444: An apology to KB

Some of you may have seen a recent artwork I did for KB earlier. He didn't want me to post the full one, so I thought if I'd just posted the safe, male version that it would be ok. But it turns out that I had greatly miscalculated and hurt his feelings with the picture. As of now I have removed the picture, but the damage was done.

As many of you have known, the overall stress of trying to submit a thesis in half a month is getting to me, and I'd come to the realization that I'd been starting to degenerate as a person. Some of you may have picked it up over the past few months as I'd started posting artworks that seem to deviate from what I usually post. Though being a person I cannot and will not make an excuse from that for my own behavior, as I should have more self control over what and who I am. Before I realized it, I have lost an old friend in the process. Now while I'd never expect to be forgiven for it, as a person I'd man up to admit where I was wrong and apologise for it. While he may not see the journal, and things may never return to where they were before, I thank him for the time he had in me and for showing me what I have become. While I used to be nice to my friends I'd not noticed that I'd changed and soured over the years, and that is something that I have to address.

While he has blocked me on both sites ( and frankly I do deserve it), and that this will probably not change anything now, I'd still have a duty to post an apology to take responsibility for my own actions. While I do not expect him to forgive, I still have to apologise for my actions.


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Kb,

I'm very sorry for what I did. While I posted only a male version, I know I shouldn't have posted to begin with. I'd post a journal and took down the artworks.

Now I'd never expect that you'd ever forgive me for this, but I take full responsibility for all the hurt I caused. I am sorry that you had to put up with all of this with me. I know I can never make up to what harm I caused but I am ashamed of my behavior to you in the past few days. Now I will not make any excuses for it but you do deserve a better friend than what I have become.

 I will part ways with you, you had been nice and I'd miss you, but I thank you for showing me what I have become. I will take that as a lesson. While we may never talk again, I thank you for the time we had together, and I thank you for showing me what I had become, and I wish you all the best in your future.

Farewell Kb.

Yours Sincerely.
Snowfyre.



To the few other friends that I have, I will strive to take better care of our friendship.



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Update:

www.furaffinity.net/journal/52…
issue was resolved.